Sunday, March 3, 2013

Words of a Stranger


“So hold my hand and I’ll walk with you, my dear,” was all he said to her.  She didn’t know what say.  After all the hell she has been through, here he was, a simple gentleman offering his hand out.  As he helped her up, she took the man in.  Young, mid to upper twenties maybe.  Short, black hair, clean-shaven.
“Don’t you want to know why I was lying there?” she asked this stranger.  He simply held her hand and walked with her out of the back alley to the street, then guided her to the left. 
“Not really.”
“Or why I look like I’ve been beaten within an inch of my life?” 
“Who is to say that I don’t already know?”  he replied kindly.  She noticed his black jacket matched the color of his hair. 
“I’ve never met you before, so how do I know I can trust someone who says he knows me already?”  she asked him in an interrogating fashion. 
“For the simple reason you trust complete strangers with your back when you walk among strangers, but you can’t bring yourself to trust those you know,” he told her. 
That is true, I suppose, she thought to herself.  “But if you know me already, how can you trust me?” she asked him defensively.  They walked past a couple people as they passed storefront after storefront, continuing down the sidewalk.
A solemn smile crossed his face as they neared a street corner.  “Because I know you’ve lost everything,” he said quietly, “and don’t have a drive to keep going anymore.”  His fair complexion betrayed nothing of his past, of who he really was.  Yet, she couldn’t help but notice how soft his sky blue eyes were. 
They crossed the street and continued their journey, almost without notice by the passing cars and people walking the streets.  “So is that why you’re helping me?  Because you pity me?” she asked in a persecuting tone again.  Despite his kindness and his fair looks, life has taught her that she can’t trust anyone, as everyone has a personal agenda.  Everyone.
“Isn’t it possible that for once, someone is just trying to help you out?”  he asked questioningly.  No, almost teasingly.
She responded quickly and definitively, “No.”  The young man smiled and continued walking with her, though not once giving off an air of superiority, malice, or ill-intent.  Even when she looked to his eyes, they seemed calm.  Peaceful even.  They continued on in silence for a while, passing a couple more intersections and making a turn or two.  At this point, his peaceful demeanor was becoming infectious.  She stopped caring where they were or where he was walking her to.  She was much more entranced with this feeling of peace he was giving her. 
She finally decided to break the silence, now that she had calmed down enough.  “Why then?” she asked him.  “Why are you here right now?  Why help me out when I have nothing to offer in return?”
“Unfortunate circumstance is what brought you down.  You weren’t meant to take a fall like that, let alone not complete your task.”  The buildings and storefronts have disappeared now, replaced by a quiet park.  The leaves of oaks and maples moved softly in the light breeze this evening, and the scent of moisture clinging to the short green grass added to her trancelike state.  “No,” he continued as they made their way through the park, “your destiny goes beyond these city streets.”
Now she was confused.  “I asked you why you’re helping me,” she asked quizzically.
“Indeed.  My dear, you were in a dark place.  All of the helping hands that were supposed to cross your path never did.  Needless to say, you lost your faith in the world around you.  You felt as though you were alone, and after failing to complete your task, you had resolved to die alone and give up the struggle.”  She looked at him sternly, trying to figure out how he could know a secret like that.  “In regards to your question, I am here tonight to guide you home.”  Home?  She looked around, her senses now working to make order of what he was saying.  They had come upon a large stone structure in the middle of the park, one that had the graceful architecture of a cathedral, but the quiet simplicity of an old stone watermill. 
Where are we?  She thought to herself.
“Somewhere safe,” he told her comfortingly, almost like he read her mind… again. 
“Who are you?” she asked, a sense of fear nowhere to be found.
He smiled.  They approached the cool stone steps of the place, and for the first time she realized how big the structure was.  The large stone pillars did a wonderful job at framing the massive wooden doors at the top of the many steps before them.  She gazed over every feature of the place, taking it in with the fervor of a small child on the first day of school.  “This is the Iglesia del Ángel de la Guarda.  It’s a place where you can find peace.”
Iglesia?  She thought to herself.  “This is a church?”  This wasn’t adding up for her.  She turned to face him, this mysterious man who had picked her up and guided her to this place.  “Why?  Why here of all places?” she demanded of him.  He looked down at her, making eye contact for the first time.  As she looked deep into his sky blue eyes, she found in them a softness and kindness she had never seen before.  He smiled to her.
“To teach you, my dear Elena, that you are not alone.”  He turned her around to face the cathedral steps and, for the first time since he had taken her from that dark alley, he released her hand from his.  He spoke softly to her ear, “and now the rest is up to you.” 
She took her first couple steps up, not really knowing what to expect.  Her mind was racing.  Just who was this man?  And what did the rest of the name of the place mean?  Church of the Angel… angel what?  Guarda… what did ‘guarda’ mean?   It dawned on her that she had not once since he had taken her hand felt any pain.  I mean, we did walk for quite a while, she thought to herself, and I was almost beaten almost to death.  I could have sworn I had a few broken bones as well.  She took a few more steps before she realized something else: she had not once spoken her name.  How did he… finally the last piece of the puzzle fell into place:  Church of the Guardian Angel.  She wheeled around to face the man who had only moments ago whispered into her ear, but her eyes found nothing but a long deserted sidewalk in a quiet park on the edge of the city.  

Saturday, March 2, 2013

The last three years

In the last three years, a lot has happened in my life.  I left home, left everything behind to go find myself.  I learned what it meant to be an outdoor educator, even learned what it meant to work hard.  I ended the four year relationship I had with my high school sweetheart, and finally learned the meaning of heartbreak.  I've created strong bonds with my closest friends, though I've lost a few on the way as well.  I learned what it feels like to be betrayed by someone close to me.  I've even fallen in and out of love with my best friend, though I've found myself being kept at a distance these days.  I waved goodbye to my two good friends as they entered into military service and shipped off to boot camp.  I've watched myself slide into depression and fight back out of it.  But I'm still going.  I've only just started getting over my losses, but I've finally come out on the other side.  Looking back, I can see how much I've changed and how much I've learned about the world.  I've changed my look, as well as my outlook, and have become someone completely different.  I've picked up a couple regrets along the way, though I can at least say it was a learning experience.  It was only three years, but in these three years my life has changed considerably.  I've started writing again, and I hope to bring this blog back up to snuff.  Let me welcome you to the new era, the new me.  I've branched out from poetry, and I've really taken to short stories, so expect to see a healthy mix of the two on this page from now on.  Anyway, enough of my rambling.  I will start posting material soon.  Adios!

The Next Chapter

It has been quite some time since I last logged in here. A very long time. In fact, the last time I posted anything here, I was in my senior year of high school. Indeed, much has happened since then. In truth, only three years have past, though it feels to me like a lifetime ago. Many have told me in my life that the person who goes into college is completely different from the one who comes out. Many wise people, in fact. Unfortunately, we really can never truly understand this until we go through it ourselves, and in my case, I've changed quite a bit since graduation. I've experienced many things, some good, some bad. I've grown as a person, and I would even go as far to say that I've gained a deeper insight as to what it means to be an adult. I'm no longer an innocent young boy anymore. Though I can't say that even with all that I've learned, I have become a man. As sad as I am to say this, I did stop writing for a time. Even though I have picked it back up again (thankfully) and have started to write and create, my style seems to have changed. In the coming weeks and months, I will post some of my recent works and I hope that you can understand what I mean. Maybe as time goes on I can tell my story, through the good and the bad, all while entertaining you with literature in between. We shall see what the future holds. I've closed the chapter on my past and am now working on moving forward. To any who read this, I hope that while you walk with me, for as brief or as long as you choose, you enjoy yourself. You learn from me, from my mistakes and accomplishments. This is my next chapter in the great adventure of life. Have fun, enjoy the ride.